The Masks You Wear

As humans have evolved and crafted technologies and languages to improve their chances of survival, the realm of thought so too has had its own development. Once survival came easy, civilizations flourished and the realm of the intellect expanded. This is when we witness humanity crafting and building intellectual frameworks to sustain mental survival in an atmosphere of close proximity to others. Be it in the form of a family, the tribe or the nation.

One of these mental frameworks allowed humans to divide themeselves early on into roles. Humans still do this to this very day by fabricating a variety of personas suited for different encounters. It’s often a way of fitting in with the crowd or a specific situation.

For instance, Continue reading “The Masks You Wear”

The Sex Addict – Episode 2

These are short chapters in an episodic series I’m writing called “The Sex Addict”
FOR AGES 21 and OVER ONLY PLEASE!

To read episode 1 click here

I’m at work. I’m an accountant if you must know. Though the job is really a front. I was good friends with the company owner and i had too much dirt on him. Wasn’t hard to convince him to give me an overpaid job doing paperwork. Shredding paperwork, to be precise. No supervision, of course. I’ve already got all the dirt on him i need so he doesn’t mind letting me see all the crap he needs destroyed. Him funneling my massive salary to cleverly relieve his tax burden, is only one example. All i have to do is keep my mouth shut. I’m the quiet type, so that’s easy.

The woman in the cubicle beside me shouts Continue reading “The Sex Addict – Episode 2”

When happiness means sadness

I’m conflicted. What if pursuing your own happiness comes at the expense of unhappiness for others? Should i choose sadness for others to be happy? Or should i pursue happiness even if that brings sadness to others?

I love my wife and children. But i deeply love Rebecca, my soulmate. My wife is my rearing partner and I love her. She’s like a sister to me. With her we Continue reading “When happiness means sadness”

She found out about the affair…

On October of last year the Universe told me: “love”

As-in, a call to action: “go and love

When I heard this, it resonated so well with me that I felt like a tuning fork vibrating upon meeting its own frequency for the first time.

But then the question emerged in my mind: “How? What? Whom?”

I had awoken to what it was I was longing to do my whole life but now I didn’t know how. Then it came to me: “become a healer.”

Touch has always come naturally to me. Be they male or female friends, I’ve always had an eagerness to Continue reading “She found out about the affair…”

She lights my rainbow

The happiest moments in my life, have been with Rebecca.
The saddest moments in my life, have been with Rebecca.
The most frightening moments in my life, have been with Rebecca.
The most pleasurable moments in my life, have been with Rebecca.
The mose spiritual moments in my life, have been with Rebecca.
The most upsetting moments in my life, have been with Rebecca.
The most sexual moments in my life, have been with Rebecca.
The most adventurous moments in my life, have been with Rebecca.
The most vulnerable moments in my life, have been with Rebecca.
The most honest moments in my life, have been with Rebecca.
The most dishonest moments in my life, have been with Rebecca.

Rebecca has turned my heart into a pin cushion replete with cupid arrows.
Rebecca has lit the Continue reading “She lights my rainbow”

Love reactor engaged

I felt her smile from afar. Or maybe it was laughter.  It bounced in my chest setting off my heart like a game of pin ball.

It roused my energies and erupted into uncontrollable laughter of my own. I was burping giggles suddenly.

It felt like nervous laughter. There is such a profound connection between me and Rebecca. It’s undeniable.

I’m feeling warmth again in my chest, like an energy source has been restored.

Maybe keeping a slow burn is safer and less likely to go off balance.

The closer we get to each other, the brighter this glow in my chest becomes. But inevitably both polarities slip away from each other and disaster ensues.

I’ll keep my distance this time.  And let her approach me, if she ever desires too.

I can’t live without her love in my heart. My life force is tied to her.


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