When happiness means sadness

I’m conflicted. What if pursuing your own happiness comes at the expense of unhappiness for others? Should i choose sadness for others to be happy? Or should i pursue happiness even if that brings sadness to others?

I love my wife and children. But i deeply love Rebecca, my soulmate. My wife is my rearing partner and I love her. She’s like a sister to me. With her we Continue reading “When happiness means sadness”

She found out about the affair…

On October of last year the Universe told me: “love”

As-in, a call to action: “go and love

When I heard this, it resonated so well with me that I felt like a tuning fork vibrating upon meeting its own frequency for the first time.

But then the question emerged in my mind: “How? What? Whom?”

I had awoken to what it was I was longing to do my whole life but now I didn’t know how. Then it came to me: “become a healer.”

Touch has always come naturally to me. Be they male or female friends, I’ve always had an eagerness to Continue reading “She found out about the affair…”

She lights my rainbow

The happiest moments in my life, have been with Rebecca.
The saddest moments in my life, have been with Rebecca.
The most frightening moments in my life, have been with Rebecca.
The most pleasurable moments in my life, have been with Rebecca.
The mose spiritual moments in my life, have been with Rebecca.
The most upsetting moments in my life, have been with Rebecca.
The most sexual moments in my life, have been with Rebecca.
The most adventurous moments in my life, have been with Rebecca.
The most vulnerable moments in my life, have been with Rebecca.
The most honest moments in my life, have been with Rebecca.
The most dishonest moments in my life, have been with Rebecca.

Rebecca has turned my heart into a pin cushion replete with cupid arrows.
Rebecca has lit the Continue reading “She lights my rainbow”

Love reactor engaged

I felt her smile from afar. Or maybe it was laughter.  It bounced in my chest setting off my heart like a game of pin ball.

It roused my energies and erupted into uncontrollable laughter of my own. I was burping giggles suddenly.

It felt like nervous laughter. There is such a profound connection between me and Rebecca. It’s undeniable.

I’m feeling warmth again in my chest, like an energy source has been restored.

Maybe keeping a slow burn is safer and less likely to go off balance.

The closer we get to each other, the brighter this glow in my chest becomes. But inevitably both polarities slip away from each other and disaster ensues.

I’ll keep my distance this time.  And let her approach me, if she ever desires too.

I can’t live without her love in my heart. My life force is tied to her.


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